punkrock love

Gave you love, gave you heart, all you gave me broken heart.

Dried Up, Tied And Dead To The World

To start off:
"Sometimes I feel so worthless."
"Sometimes I feel discarded."
"I wish that I was good enough."
"Then I know that I am not alone."

I am damned. I am dead. All my ashes to be sent to a perfect place in the sun..and in the dirt. There's a windshield in my heart and I'm bugged and smeared and scarred. Could you stop it from swallowing me? Could you please..

Angels with needles poked through my eyes. I can't see. Visible thing is pain while letting in the light of the world. I'm no longer blind.

Now I hold my ugly head. You've casted a shadow of my pefect death in the sun and in the dirt.
Tell me something beautiful and something free as I'm so empty here without you.
My apologies.

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In life thy tears grow scarlet
Come desired nightfall
enchant my grievous loss
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fundamentally lonesome

She saw his photo
She jokingly liked him
She contacted him
They seem happy
She liked him
Crying and thinking all night after the first fall
She stood up and continued walking
Happy times weren't there to stay
They welcome depression
She was thrown again
She cried
She feels cheated and hurt
She wanted explanation and bombed everything that she wants to know
Again, she felt that there is no chance
He didn't bother
Looks like he cared
But she cried herself to sleep every night
Thinking of the happy times and why she was thrown
She couldn't wait any longer
She doesn't want to be alone
There's no light at the end of the tunnel for her
She is hoping for the best
She is still walking, wanting him
Just waiting patiently till it dies

Rest In Peace Little One

Rest In Peace Little Nonoi.

You're the cutest baby cousin ever.

You will be missed.

May your stepfather die a terrible death.

I love you little one..

I wanna outrace the speed of pain. For another day.

Sometimes I feel that there is no point in chasing what I want.
It's like I've been trying and waiting but I wasn't given the attention and even the guts.
What a fucking loser /I am.
How I wish there's an end to everything that weakens/hurts me. It would be great.
But sadly, there's no such thing.

How I yearn for thee..
I want to be happy. I do not want a depressing/miserable life. How I wish there's something that bring happines that easily..
Right now there's only one thing that'll make me the happiest person..but I've no idea whether that day will ever come..

Thee I adore..
All this while, I've been really scared. I do not want something bad to happen to me.
I just want things to go the way I want. But I do not want to be selfish at the same time..

"Give me a chance and I'll bring you to paradise."