I wanna outrace the speed of pain. For another day.

Sometimes I feel that there is no point in chasing what I want.
It's like I've been trying and waiting but I wasn't given the attention and even the guts.
What a fucking loser /I am.
How I wish there's an end to everything that weakens/hurts me. It would be great.
But sadly, there's no such thing.

How I yearn for thee..
I want to be happy. I do not want a depressing/miserable life. How I wish there's something that bring happines that easily..
Right now there's only one thing that'll make me the happiest person..but I've no idea whether that day will ever come..

Thee I adore..
All this while, I've been really scared. I do not want something bad to happen to me.
I just want things to go the way I want. But I do not want to be selfish at the same time..

"Give me a chance and I'll bring you to paradise."