Time has come for bitter things..or is it?

Maybe it's time to care less.

Maybe it's time to go with the flow.

Maybe it's time to appreciate whatever is given.

Maybe it's time to have some air.

Maybe it's time to not think of giving up yet.

Perhaps it's time to improvise.

Perhaps it's time to not be ignorant.

Perhaps it's time to give the very best.

Perhaps it's time to cherish.

Perhaps it's time to not think that you're a companion.

Never have the misery pulse been hit at an all time high. Subdued by incessant nonsense running through the mind which couldn't give a damn about how the overall body will be affected. This weakness..it is so much of a challenge. Even the thought of it makes me sick. How do I man up you may ask. I think it's because of every smile, kiss and touch. The more they strike me, the more alive I'll be.

Things are not going the way I want them to be. I guess different people have different ways of showing affection. I've learnt that it is something that is never possible to be forced on. It has to grow naturally. The 3 words that I've been wanting to hear with eyes locked..may never be heard or maybe soon. How long more? I have no bloody idea. Some said to be patient while others protested that a closure should be made. Where do I go from here? It is just too risky. Or maybe I'll just be a companion providing smiles and laughter but received none of it.

As what was promised, I'll still stick to that cause it's never nice to break a promise. The reward i'm working for? The biggest, brightest and the most sincere smile on her face. It may take many more years to achieve that but i must not let the emotions destroy this uphill task of happiness.

Words and music tried to calm the situation. But no. Didn't happen.

Nevertheless, here i am now. Still standing strong.